cry me a river…

it’s been a while, blog.. it’s been a while.. and in this not so short break time i have made one big decision for my life. Yes! i decided to go back to college life and pursue one of my many dreams… become a Psychologist.

Okay, it’s not an easy decision to make, tho. I’ve already work for this one very strict company with many rules and so controlling, it even controls its employee’s personal life, and of course they had a regulation for person who wants to continue their study. With my biggest gut, i take a chance to enroll in one of the finest Psychologist-to-be program in town,  and thank God, i’ve got accepted..

I am currently waiting a reply from my big boss whether they let me to continue my education or not. I really wish that I could, since this is why I choose psychology as my major for my bach.

Some people said that God always arrange something that suit your life, God will never give you something you can’t handle, and this time, I pray that God really make this Psychologist path as my destiny.. I pray.. I wait and I pray..

Maybe..just maybe, some of my few readers wonders why can’t I just quit from my current job to pursue my dream, since i’ve got accepted already and people know that psychologist is one of the high-demand career nowadays. I will give you a reason.. which is… yes,the fine is too high if i resign.


Those passages above was made on a week ago, just before I ‘ve got called by my boss who then told me that I couldn’t get the permission, since my master program will take my work hour for about 2 years and they couldn’t find the right excuse for me to leave work for such a long period even I’ve explain to them that the time wouldn’t take whole day in a whole week, it could be only for several hours a day that I could come to office after class. I’ve failed to convince them.. and they failed me also..
Have you ever feel so angry, blog? So angry that you couldn’t scream, couldn’t yell, couldn’t do anything to express your anger but can only cry? cry a river, silently, with your own company, alone, in the dark? yes.. that was what I feel back then.. I felt angry, very upset, and hopeless, till I realized that my world wouldn’t end just because i couldn’t get their permission.
I had to make decision.. a big one and the most selfish decision i’ve ever made. With massive tears flowing from my eyes, I’ve choose to keep pursuing my dream, with all the consequences it will take.
I could lose may things in progress, but like many quotes have told us, whoever or whichever stay with us during the progress with their support when we find obstacles and their warm hugs when we finally in the successful track, they are worth to called your precious gifts.


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