TW: Suicidal Thought ‘If killing myself is not a sin, I might have been long gone to the other side..’ 2026 is clearly not an easy year for me. I’ve been challenged in ways that I really thought death as an escape route. Alhamdulillah, throughout these worst moments, I could still see a flicker ofContinue reading “38 years Celebrating Life”
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ini Aku.
Banyak hal yang berusaha menjatuhkanku,tapi aku harus tetap bisa bangkit kembali. Aku akan tunjukkan pada dunia,bahwa aku bukanlah manusia yang mudah di dera.Aku bukanlah sasaran yang mudah dilumpuhkan. Meski kali ini pukulan yang kuterima cukup keras..Aku bahkan terguling dan tak mampu berteriak mencari pertolongan…ah, bukannya tak mampu,tapi aku tak mau.Aku terlalu malu,martabatku menghalangi kewarasanku. MatakuContinue reading “ini Aku.”
22 years
More than 2 decades has gone by.The hurt is still real.The longing is even bigger. Your love! is all I needYour love! is all I crave I never know how to mend this wound, nor that I want to. That’s OKAY. This scar means that you are real.That your love is realThe smell that IContinue reading “22 years”
Four Hearts
I’ve just realized that I’ve taken them for granted. It’s like I know that they will always have my back whenever I need them. It should not be that way. It should’ve been a two-way relationship
Dear you..
Birthday wish for my husband.
31 yo and depressed.
A reflection of what mess I am going through right now. 31 years old.
September 2003
This is a sad story. Beware. It is about the day my mom passed away. You’ve been warned.
LPDP -A Journey of reinventing my self
My journey to finally got an LPDP Scholarship is not an easy one: It is long, windy, and bumpy road. I find my purpose along the way, and rejoice with my true self.
Dear Zhaf #3
My third annual letter for beloved Zhaf
Dear Zhaf #2
Some words for my beloved son. 🙂
