I Write, because..

I never know that writing need a cause. I simply love to write.

Since my childhood time, I write about anything. Like any little girl, I owned a diary filled with my emotions. I was a pretty dark girl: stormy mood, full of anger and shyness, not a good combination. My diary was full with stories about how I mad at someone or how something depressed me – any negative emotion, really. Channeling my negative emotions through diary was succeed in making me calm, so anybody back then knew me as an ordinary smiley girl.

I remember one day, I had enough of my self: I climbed a tree and burned my diary. That day was the last day I have a diary about my hatred. I moved on and started to write fiction – mostly about falling in love, maybe my teenager hormones finally got to me and love was all over my mind. I’ve made a new diary that full of my feeling – this time, a positive one, the lovey dovey of my teenager time.

Accepted in a University far away from home, I found a new world and a new channel to express my thought. Mixed feeling and structured mind are now my best friend, while shyness was still my biggest draw back. As a psychology student, public speaking should have been easy because it is a mandatory thing for us, but I was struggling to master it. Blog was my practice field. I tried to build an alter ego as a nice and speak-up girl. My blog was my paradise.

And now, after all this time, blog is still a big part of my life. I write because I want to save memories. I want to be able to trace my past, not just about where I have been or who I have met, but also how I have improved throughout these years. I write because I need to proof my existence. I write therefore I am.

Before 2017

Like usual, as a challenge for my self to blog more, I sign up to a writing challenge/course. Since the Blogging U now has the on demand program, It is more convenient for me. I already signed up to some course, so there will be many thematic posts coming in the future.

I want to set my mind right in the blogging vibe for this upcoming years, just to discipline my self. Juggling in motherhood, full time employee and part time lecturer : I know it won’t be easy. At least I want to try.

So, for the day one task of Branding and Growth,these are 3 concrete goals for my blog in 2017:

  • I blog for telling stories about my life, or about my thought and I really want to post at least one post a week.
  • Once a month, I need to publish an article about Psychological phenomena. *I should have been doing it years ago 😦
  • Starting January of 2017, I will make a theme for each day.
    • Monday : #Travelmonday
    • Tuesday : #Poetrytuesday
    • Wednesday : #Weddnesday
    • Thursday : #Throwbackthursday
    • Friday : #Freeday
    • Weekend : Playtime with Baby Z

Will this goal set through 2017? Let’s see..

“dream high, baby.. but never dream when you’re high..” -@daRkJasm

The daRkJasmine in 2015

It is nearly the end of 2015 and as always, WordPress will happily send us our annual report.

This site is having a major setback from last year in statistic but in real life, I am very grateful to say that Allah has granted me many loves and wonderful events – but it will be for another post.

Click here for this site’s annual report from the kind and lovely Jetpack.


The Forever Songs in My Life

Do I really need to explain this?

Every one loves Harry Potter! (Okay, it is an overgeneralizing, but I refuse to believe that there is a person out there who hates Harry) 😀

Just by hearing this melody could bring all the great memories of our adventure with the Boy Who Lived.

I was in my second grade of Junior High School when my friend introduced me to Harry Potter – The series already reached the third book if I’m not mistaken. Almost 15 years passed since that life changing moment. I am all grown up now but every time I hear this song, I feel like I am back to the safety of my mom’s warm embrace.

Today’s prompt of writing 101 is to write about three most important songs in my life. When I read that prompt this morning, my head suddenly full of this original score of Harry Potter. While I already made up my mind about the first song, I still have to choose the other two and it’s really painful that i found it was such a hard task for me. *sigh*

At the end of the day, I don’t have to dig my memory and find the perfect two songs for this post – they come to my mind in their own way! I was browsing and reading my old post when I stumble upon a post (Sorry, I won’t put a link because the post is full of hatred – my old self was a grumpy little lady). The post remind me of a song that used to be a soundtrack to lighten my mood. The song is In The End by Linkin Park.

Do you know what is my favorite part of this song? The iconic melody at the beginning!

Linkin Park had succeed in making me believe they understand what I feel : I tried so hard and got so far, but in the end it doesn’t even matter. Exactly, nothing matters.

The third song – or like every body else love to say – the last but not the least, is a song from my home country. The singer is my long time favorite singer from my generation. Sherina Munaf. She is a very talented singer who can play many musical instruments : piano is my favorite!

Sebelum Selamanya, literally translated as “before forever” is my own soundtrack for my big event next month.

Couples have to remember the first time they fall in love before promising each other a “forever”.

Writing 101

I am irritated by my own writing. I am like a violinist whose ear is true, but whose fingers refuse to reproduce precisely the sound he hears within.
– Gustave Flaubert


Yes! I’ve just enrolled in a Blogging University.

Class of June, 2014.

I do realize that I failed my last writing challenge, but I will keep going and keep writing. Motivation is what I really need.

Let’s buckle up and have fun in the class!


an award to brighten the day!

It is so wet in this rainy season here. Some of the area in Jakarta is already covered by flood. I hope the flood to drain very soon.

A comment yesterday brightened my gloomy mood affected by the gloomy sky. I have been nominated for the Liebster Award by Kathy from http://kathyclempoetry.wordpress.com (in the comment in my about page). A post is dedicated for the nominations. Thank you for being so kind and let us spread the happiness and the spirit for blogging!

The Liebster Award

This award is mainly for the newly blog, but even my blog isn’t a new one, I really appreciate this award. I hope the bloggers that I  nominate will also feel the joy this award has brought to me.

There are rules associated with the Liebster award:

1. Thank the person who nominated you and link to their blog.

2. You must answer the 10 questions given to you by the nominee before you.  (That list is below the nominations.)
3. You must nominate 10 of your favorite blogs with fewer than 200 followers and notify them of their nomination.
4. You must come up with 10 questions for your nominees to answer.

Here are the answers to my 10 questions:

1. When did you start your blog?

It was 7 years ago. 😀 Blogging as my own way to cope with my stormy mood, so basically this blog is my cyber trash bin and I am not taking it seriously back then. Not until I found my passion in blogging as a new way of meeting new friends, finding new happiness and opportunities.

2. What made you do the Zero to Hero challenge?

I join the challenge because I need some motivation to keep my mind in the blogging world. I need some form of commitment to write almost everyday.

3. Do you have any pets?

No, I don’t. Not because I don’t like animal, but because I am very bad at it. I merely watch my own self moreover another living creature.

4. What is your favorite hobby?

It is adventuring! I love to feel an adrenaline rush inside my body. That is why I join Scout Movement in the first place. Now that I am no longer an active member of Scouting, I made my own adventure experience. I go wherever I want whenever I want. 😀

5. What do you do most of the day?

Beside daydreaming or trouble sleeping? umm.. I am eating something, in most time of the day.

6. Do you believe in magic?

YES! What do you think I am doing at Hogwarts?

7. If you could have another life, what would you be?

I guess I want to also be “me”, but with some more improvisation along the way. (if only I knew then what I’ve known now)

8. Why?

Because I am happy as I am but in the same time, as a human, I also like to redo something in my current life.

9. How big is your immediate family?

It’s quite big now, with a step family and my sister’s new little family.

10. What do you like about writing?

We could be anything we want. We could write anything we want. We have to read more in order to write better, and that is truly a challenge I need to improve my view of anything in this world. Cogito ergo sum.

My Liebster Award Nominees

1. The 9 Lives of Sarah Q

2. It’s easier not to do it

3. Blue Eyed Rockabella

4. 12 month challenge

5. moo.mentum

6. I am a curvygurl

7. Just Life

8. Kate, The Lost Wanderer

9. From One Crazy Life to Another

10. The Convoluted Menagerie

Some of them are not a new blog or already has many followers, but I want to let them know that I appreciate their writing. 🙂

Here are my 10 questions

1. What is your most favorite food?

2. Why?

3. What is your idea of “me time”?

4. What comes to your mind when you hear or read “Indonesia”?

5. What is your favorite color?

6. Which one is your favorite post in your blog? (a link please?)

7. Why?

8. Which post is the hardest one to write? (another link?)

9. What is the reason behind your chosen theme?

10. What do you think about this award?

I hope I am not bothering you all with this post.

Thank you Thank you all..


thanks to Amanda, she traces this award and come across this awesome link about the award which has done a lot of work in this award that also have an awesome poetry blog.


Describe your personal style, however you’d like to interpret that — your clothing style, your communication style, your hair style, your eating style, anything.

That is the daily prompt for 8th January and the Zero to Hero challenge has come to the day 7, which is:

create and upload a simple header, or test out a few different backgrounds.

a Simple Header lead to a logo for this blog. Been so long since my last time editing photo for this blog, then today I finally do some editing and voila… the new header is here!

Do you like it?

This is my style. a simple one, but always has black and white color in it, now with some bright color for adding some new element to my journey. For a long time, my theme is always black and white, not only for my blog but for my life. I used to wear black or white clothes most of the time and I also paint my bedroom with those colors.

Black and white are my muse.

People say that life is not only about black or white, there are grey areas in many aspects. I couldn’t disagree with that… but for me, grey or other colors have black or white element in them. So whatever the color you choose, you will always be influenced by the black or the white, which one you prefer to befriend is all up to you. Be wise to choose. 🙂


The Dark Jasmine

It’s Psychology of UGM’s Birthday!

The first impression of this faculty is made back when I have an interview at the admission, in 2005 and it was a very good impression. The interview went well and rather fun, so relax that I already felt very welcomed by them. One of the interviewer turned out to be The Dean of Psychology Faculty. Well done, Sir.

Many interesting experiences I’ve got while I was studying there. It could be because the subject is about human, so I can really relate all the lessons to my self and so applicable in daily basis. Psychology is one unique subject. Being a psychology graduated is another whole world. We can’t just tell someone that we are a psychology graduated without they ask us to “read” them, honestly people… you aren’t a book to read, are you?

Today is the 49th birthday of Faculty of Psychology, Gadjah Mada University. This is an age that classified as middle adulthood, which favorable outcome based on Erikson’s stages of psychosocial development is concern for family, society and future generation. I hope this Faculty will keep educating future psychologist and psychology researcher that concern to build a better social world for family, society and future generation. Forever best wishes for the faculty and the future generation!

Above is a video about my University. Feel free to watch it in your spare time.

This is my first time embed a video, thanks to Day 6 Challenge!

once again, Happy Birthday Faculty of Psychology, Gadjah Mada University

…Bakti Kami Mahasiswa Gadjah Mada Semua…

Exploring Time!

To follow new topics in my reader is such a hard one, because I have follow almost every topics. I like to keep my mind open and sometime I found many interesting stuffs from things I used to hate. 😀

Nevertheless, These are topics that I recently followed:

1. Pop Culture

One can’t forever avoid what’s always popped up, no?

2. Sport

I guess I really need some motivation for my better sporting lifestyle.. Teehee

3. Politic

a preparation for my master course. *burned*

4. Inequality

Balanced life is not always about an equality.

5. Marriage

another preparation. *Silently whispering* 😀

And I try a new theme, whaddaya think? I choose this because I haven’t use something orange before, it turns out rather fun!

Yay! I could keep up with the challenge again..


The Dark Jasmine