Dear Zhaf #3

Hi there, Kiddo!

This is my annual letter for you, Zhaf – and I have managed to force my lazy fingers to finally write again. As always, I will begin with how much I love you and I know that you know it. This year will be difficult for us, since I have to left country for continuing my study and we will be separate for 6 months. Writing this is not only my way for ensuring my self that everything will be okay, that we will be okay, but also as a reminder for me that everything happen for a reason and I know that when you are old enough you will understand.

Enough about me, let us talk about you.

2019 marks your third birthday. You are a grown baby now! What a fun, yeaaa!

It is time for you to kick ball on the field every afternoon.
It is time for you to play cars any second you want to.
It is time for you to exercise you karate move to me every night before bed.
It is time for you to make me run after you, just because you love to see me catching my breath.
It is time for you to say no to something that you don’t feel like you want it.
It is time for you to recognize your feeling, choosing what make you happy instead of the one that bugs you.
It is time for you to watch Upin Ipin all you want in the weekend.
It is time for you to make your choice of who you want to have pillow talk with – Thanks for always choosing me over your Ayah 😆

However, dear…

This is also a time for you to understand that there is a whole bigger world out there that you need to figure out on your own.
This is also time for you to consider other’s feeling and to see something beyond your own world.

Do you sometime feel so overwhelm by all this stimulations around you? It is okay, dear. It is what world is made for, to overwhelm human. Just so a human could understand that a world is not only made for one person, but it is also for other human and other creatures.

Do you sometime feel so tired hearing me talk nonsense about kindness to other? It is okay, dear. It is why you are gifted with a mind to think and a heart to filter it. Soon enough, you will find all my nonsense are actually make sense and I believe that you can always spread kindness and love.

I believe in you, so you could believe in yourself.

Love you,
Bunda.

Mother, how are you today?

Mother, how are you today?
Here is a note from your daughter.
With me everything is ok.
Mother, how are you today?

Mother, don’t worry, I’m fine.
Promise to see you this summer.
This time there will be no delay.
Mother, how are you today?

I found the man of my dreams.
Next time you will get to know him.
Many things happened while I was away.
Mother, how are you today?

– Maywood

So.. How are you today, Mom?

I could only sent you an Al-Fatihah and pray for you endlessly now..

But, let me tell you a story…

I am now a mother too, Mom.

You have a grandson that you could call ‘Zhaf’.

He is such an active teenage-baby and i love him more than I love myself sometime – especially when he is already fast asleep (I know you understand what I mean, rite?)

I am now a wife too, Mom.

You have a son-in-law that you could call ‘Ji’.

He is such an amazing human being that maybe you won’t understand why he agreed to marry me at the first place – especially because you really know how grumpy I could be sometime.

I am now a teacher too, Mom.

You are my aspiration.

You are my deep obsession.

You are my muse.

All in all.

I am fine, Mom.

More than fine : I am happy.

Just one thing to tell you,

I really miss you!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, MA..

Much kisses,

Adek

For my dear Kak @MeeZahra

“You may be as different as the sun and the moon, but the same blood flows through both your hearts. You need her, as she needs you…”

― George R.R. Martin, A Game of Thrones

There is a girl,

born into one family,

a middle child,

the first girl in the family,

named Zelmidianti Adzel.

-/.-/-/.-

There is a girl,

build one little family,

married to a charming man,

a man of her dream,

and a daughter everybody loves.

-/.-/-/.-

There is a girl,

in a way to be a woman,

never realize that she is indeed a lady,

shining bright,

so radiant.

-/.-/-/.-

There is a woman,

loved

by everyone,

especially by me,

her naughty little sister.

-/.-/-/.-

There is a woman,

means everything to me,

more than my life,

more than my happiness.

-/.-/-/.-

Joy,

Blessed,

Wealth,

Everything good in this life,

Everything I could hope for,

I wish for it,

dearly for her.

-/.-/-/.-

I Love You,

my Sister,

always.

-/.-/-/.-

May Allah always loves you too.

from the deepest heart of @darkjasm

a Tribute for @diedroc

Once upon a time, a boy was born to earth in the eleventh of June, 1981.

a cousin of mine.

He was the only son of his parents until his brother born in 1983.

His Parents named him Dody Cahyadi, I don’t have a clue why they name him that.

I used to see him when his family came to visit mine, until my brother passed away and he became my big brother.

I never had a chance to know him, since he always had his life outside the house.

One thing I can concluded about him back then, He was such a fighter.

He fought for what he wanted in his life.

until now.

He ain’t change a thing.

He is still a fighter.

He fights for what he wanted in his life, and sure thing is he is now living his own life, his own dream.

Grab all the opportunities you have and give all your best for what you want in your life.

Never give up your dream.

I can learn from him that impossible is really a fairytale.

Impossible isn’t real.

He inspires me more than he ever imagine.

Happy birthday big Brother!

Happy new life.

Always wishes the best, and only the best for your life.

With a charming lady as your wife and a small men in her womb, I know you can conquer the new world!

Happy birthday.

I will miss you three!

@darkjasm

a Love Letter for Mommy

dear Mom..

i wanted to write something nice for you, but I think I’ve lose my ability to write poetry these days. Many things have happened to me, Mom. Many things.

People said that if you need to be calm down, come to your mommy and you’ll feel safe.

I wanted to tell you stories, about my happiness, my sadness, my dreams, my broken heart, my obsession, my twisted mind, my bizarre points of views. I wanted to tell you everything about my life. everything.

People said that your mommy will appreciate your story, even if your story isn’t worth to hear after all.

I wanted to show you how much I love you, how much your love means to me, how much my fear for losing you, how much I need your support, or just how much I miss you.

People said that you need to acknowledge your parents how much you love them before it’s too late to tell them.

Do you remember how I appreciate your cooking, How I love weekend when you made something for us just to make us wanted to be at home all the time?

Do you remember how excited we were when we watched daddy played Tennis, how we yell, dance and eat after that?

Do you remember how worried we are when we hear that my sister fall from the stair?

Do you remember how i sneaked to your bed late at night when i couldn’t sleep because of the stomachache and you need to rub my back all night just to calm me?

I do remember those, Mom. I will always remember those memories for those are the only things I could done when I really want to hug you.

I Miss You and I love You.

Happy birthday, Mom. even you’ve stopped aging since 2003.

Happy birthday, Ma.

Love,

darkjasm

finding the meaning of 20

so much things happened lately

the best or even the worst one,,

many people had made my day

shared the laughters and even the pain,,

moments come and go

whether i let it go or it makes itself gone

i really don’t know,,

all of the misery

all of the happiness

just made mE tough and so,,

let me thank you

each and everyone of U

for all the lessons i’ve learned through U

and the memories we’ve made true,,

let this simple thanks brighten urday

like u’ve brightened my day

with u realize it or not

I Love All of U so!!

ThaNks for helping me finding the meAning of being 20

and making the new me,,

it’s Newtha!!

HappY Eid Mubarak everyone!!