January 6, 2011

here come the 6th day of January in 2011,, another year has passed,,

it’s your birthday again, my dear,,

i know that u aren’t celebrate birthday anymore, i just wanna share this as my b’day gift for u, Rinda Airin

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remember the pizzas that we used to eat?

remember how long was it take us to finish all the dishes that we order?

remember the nights we used to talk till dawn?

remember the songs that we used to sing?

remember the day when u accompany me to find my office?

remember the promise that i cannot keep?

i can’t be there in ur happy wedding ceremony,,

i can’t be there when u need me,,

i can’t be there when u mostly just want to see me,,

i’ve been a terrible friend,,

bad friend,,

that i never meant to,,

i don’t ever want to hurt u, but i always do that in the end,,

i’m so sorry,,

i Love U!

I miss U so,,

please forgive me,,

when a sorry isn’t enough

whadda shock therapy for me,,

a real shock!!

i’ve hurt someone, one of my best friend,,

i’ve hurt her unintentionally, i never meant to hurt her,,

all I know that she’s hurt very badly!

it was deppressing moment for me,,

i went to ask for an apology from her,,

she ask me to let her calm first,, all I can do was waiting her to be calmed down,,

i thought i’ve never been that deppressed all of my life, I felt like i’m d worst person in d world! BAD GIRL!!

all I can say is I’m sooooo sorry,,

and I know that it wasn’t enough, it need more than those words,, an apology need an honest action that express your deep sorry,, you need to be humble and keep begging for an apology,, no need to be like you are d highest person in this world,,

remember that you are the one that need an apology to go through your life without getting deppressed, just remember that u need to clear it, even it cost you more than ur life,,