insecure feeling

I have a dream. Dream about my future. Future which I want very much. Now I am sad. Sad because I am stepping against it. I become far away from the path to my dream. People say that the hardest route is the closest way, but what if this isn’t the hardest, what if it is the easiest way, I am in the farthest way then.

I have dreams. Dreams about what I want to be. I want to be an asronaut when I was a little girl. I want to be teacher like my mother. I want to be Psychologist. I want to be a Clinician. I want to be…..a great woman. What do i really want? I already be a lecturer. I already have my own business. If I ain’t feel complete, I am not a grateful person then.

I have a dream. Dream about my ideal life. I have a life. Living my real life, not living my dream life.

I have a dream. I have a life.

Which one should I live in?

Life Learning



Human is a social creature. This sentence is told to us since our early life. It suppose to teach us how to deal with others and how to respect others, because we can never live alone.

I began to think how others can influence me, then I come to a conclusion that it does affect me in every part of my life.

I learn how to be a discipline and hard working person from my father, although I miss the “wake up in early morning” lesson.

I learn how to love, care and give unconditional regards from my mother, although I miss the “not want something in return” lesson.

I learn how to be firm from my sister, but I guess i missed the “assertive” class.

I learn how to deal with loneliness from my friends, but I guess i missed the “independent” class.

Many things we have learn and missed in our life, it is our choice what we would give them in return.

So, what you have learn from and teach to other?


another year of my life has passed by,,

many things happened,,

i call this year as a wonder year,,

got accepted in a wonderful-ever-dream job and living my life on my own behalf,,

this year is my fighting year!

lulus kuliah terus kerja, mungkin itu yang paling diinginkan oleh banyak orang dan aku mendapat anugrah itu, Alhamdulillah,,

Aku diterima kerja ditempat yang rasanya cuma bisa aku impikan, tapi ternyata bisa jadi kenyataan, bisa mulai membangun kehidupan sendiri dan menata masa depan,,

ketika kita merasa hidup kita dapat kita atur sendiri, saat itulah kita menyadari bahwa selama ini kita terlalu banyak mengabaikan anugerah dr Allah,,

Hidup sendiri di Ibu Kota memang tidak mudah, harus berani agar punya banyak pengalaman dan harus supel agar bisa diterima dilingkungan mana saja serta yang paling penting harus selalu berrefleksi pada diri sendiri agar tidak kebablasan,,

i welcome my new phase of life,,

Welcome Journeys!