This is a day after your supposedly 62nd birthday.
Do you have any idea how much I miss you?
I guess you have, since you are there in the ever after life, but also I guess it’s not matter to you anymore because the only things that will reach you from me are my prays and my good deeds.
Do you have any idea how much I need you now?
I have been married for almost 7 months now, Ma. I also have been pregnant for 4 months. I really want you to be here by my side through all this rollercoaster of life.
Do you have any idea how much I envy others?
They could be hold by their mother every time they want, yet they criticise theirs for any little clumsiness. They could talk to their mother all night long, any day they want, yet they protest for how much theirs are over protective.
Do you have any idea how much you’ve inspired me?
Your love for others, your love for sharing, your love for teaching, your love for your family, your love for many little things that won’t matter to others have aspired me to always fight for what I love and what I want in my life.
Do you have any idea how much you mean to me, Ma?
Not only after you’ve gone, but long before I could even speak, I know I love you and I adore you. I hope you know it too. I hope what I’ve done when you were still with me showed how much I wanted you to smile and always be happy.
I love you, Ma. Still love you. Will always love you
According to the Government of Indonesia, today is the 1st Ramadhan in Indonesia. Ramadhan Kareem. Ramadhan Mubarak. Selamat Ramadhan. Happy fasting. All the best greetings and wishes for my fellow Muslims around the world, may Allah gives us His mercy and forgive all of our sins. Wish our love for Allah is getting stronger through this holy month and forever.
This is my First post in this new Website. All of the posts before are imported from my old blog. I want to have my own web from long time ago, but my project with a friend meets no end and this sudden offer from Kak Idhen makes everything becomes true. Many many thanks for you, Kak! (p.s for i: thanks for the understanding.. hihi)
In the beginning of June, I joined a writing challenge, writing 101 and then I became busy with all this migrating blog stuffs (another excuse I made). Once again, I failed the challenge, this time is worse, I had only done 3 or 2 (I forget and really lazy to check). My bad. Pfiuh… and to my own surprise, this morning I have made my mind to make my own writing deadline! I have to write everyday during this Ramadhan Month. I want to write about anything that come to my mind when I begin to write. *spontaneous enough, ha?
This is day 1 of Ramadhan and just like each year before, I always begin my holy month with tears because I miss my mom so much. 2014 is a harsh year for me, many things changed in my life, even my own perspective about my self. Life is far from boring, because my heart is going through ups and downs, even it is only in june, I feel like I have the longest year. Father just get back home from hospital last week, Alhamdulillah he is getting better and more discipline with his medicine. I hope there will be no more downs in the rest of the year.
Do all what it takes for your dream, and let Allah take care of the rest, for whatever His will is for you, it is the best yet to come..
Happy fasting, everyone! Happy Ramadhan…