Satyaku ku dharmakan, Dharmaku ku baktikan

..Sorry, this post is going to be written in Bahasa.

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Saya tak bisa mengingat tahun berapa saya pertama kali bergabung di Gerakan Pramuka, seingat saya saat itu saya masih jadi siswa di Sekolah Dasar di Sebuah kecamatan yang bernama Sungai Apit. Kegiatan yang paling saya ingat adalah perkemahan yang dihadiri anggota pramuka dari Sungai Apit dan Siak, berakhir lebih cepat dari jadwal karena ada insiden kerasukan massal. Kemudian saya pindah ke Pekanbaru karena ikut papa pindah kerja dan tentu saja masih bergabung di GP.

Masa yang paling menentukan dalam sejarah keanggotaan saya di GP adalah ketika saya menjadi Penggalang di SLTPN 4 Pekanbaru. Saya mendapat banyak kesempatan untuk ikut dalam beberapa event regional, nasional maupun internasional. Menjadi anggota GP sebagai penegak di SMAN 8 Pekanbaru membuktikan bahwa semakin tua usia kita, semakin tinggi tingkatan kita dalam sebuah organisasi, maka tanggung jawab akan semakin besar dan semakin banyak pengorbanan yang harus kita lakukan. Pilihan selalu menghadang di setiap kita akan melangkah, sayapun akhirnya memilih untuk mengundurkan diri dari kepengurusan Dewan Kerja Cabang Pekanbaru karena harus melanjutkan pendidikan di perantauan. Sempat merasa sangat berat untuk melepas teman-teman dan semua kenangan di Kwarcab Pekanbaru, sempat mengalami syndrome “gak mau ikut Pramuka lagi” sampai akhirnya saya menemukan jalan untuk kembali dan bergabung dalam Racana Tribhuwanatunggadewi, UGM.

Saya bukan ingin menulis tentang kegiatan-kegiatan tersebut tetapi saya ingin menulis tentang perasaan rindu yang selalu menghinggapi setiap mendengar kata “pramuka” dan “perkemahan”.

Saya rindu saat-saat packing untuk mempersiapkan keberangkatan, baik packing barang pribadi maupun (terutama) packing barang regu. Lambaian tangan dan airmata saat pelepasan keberangkatan terasa sangat menyedihkan (dulu) walaupun sekarang kalau teringat, hal itu membuat senyum simpul karena terasa (agak) lebay.

Selisih pendapat, diam-diaman, adu argumen, keras kepala, gak mau kurve, gak bisa masak, males bersihin tenda (apalagi kalau disuruh bersihin tapak perkemahan, ew banged itu), begadang sambil ngerumpi, api unggun, cinta lokasi, curi-curi pandang, curi-curi kesempatan, ngejar tanda tangan pembina, tukar-tukaran nomor telpon (rumah), kehilangan sendok, kecurian jemuran, ngantri kamar mandi, wc yang baunya aduhai, baju side A-side B, sepatu berlumpur, ngungsi karena tenda kebanjiran, diomelin bindam, dandan buat pentas, demam panggung, nyanyi-nyanyi di bis, kelayapan di kapal, mabuk darat dan laut, jalan-jalan keluar Buper diam-diam, dapat kiriman donat dari keluarga yang (dipaksa) berkunjung.

Argh.

Jadi makin rindu. Waktu tak mungkin bisa diulang kembali, rasa yang dulu tak mungkin bisa dihadirkan lagi, tapi kesempatan untuk membuat kenangan baru akan selalu terbuka selagi hayat masih dikandung badan. Usia tak lagi muda, masa menjadi peserta didik telah usai, baju sudah tak lagi muat, tapi keterampilan yang di dapat sangat berguna hingga saat ini, jiwa pun masih berasa muda dan yang paling penting Persaudaraan Bakti yang sudah terjalin tak lekang oleh masa.

Terima kasih Gerakan Pramuka Indonesia.

Dirgahayu!

Ramadhan Kareem

According to the Government of Indonesia, today is the 1st Ramadhan in Indonesia. Ramadhan Kareem. Ramadhan Mubarak. Selamat Ramadhan. Happy fasting. All the best greetings and wishes for my fellow Muslims around the world, may Allah gives us His mercy and forgive all of our sins. Wish our love for Allah is getting stronger through this holy month and forever.

 

This is my First post in this new Website. All of the posts before are imported from my old blog. I want to have my own web from long time ago, but my project with a friend meets no end and this sudden offer from Kak Idhen makes everything becomes true. Many many thanks for you, Kak! (p.s for i: thanks for the understanding.. hihi)

 

In the beginning of June, I joined a writing challenge, writing 101 and then I became busy with all this migrating blog stuffs (another excuse I made). Once again, I failed the challenge, this time is worse, I had only done 3 or 2 (I forget and really lazy to check). My bad. Pfiuh… and to my own surprise, this morning I have made my mind to make my own writing deadline! I have to write everyday during this Ramadhan Month. I want to write about anything that come to my mind when I begin to write. *spontaneous enough, ha?

 

This is day 1 of Ramadhan and just like each year before, I always begin my holy month with tears because I miss my mom so much. 2014 is a harsh year for me, many things changed in my life, even my own perspective about my self. Life is far from boring, because my heart is going through ups and downs, even it is only in june, I feel like I have the longest year. Father just get back home from hospital last week, Alhamdulillah he is getting better and more discipline with his medicine. I hope there will be no more downs in the rest of the year.

 

Do all what it takes for your dream, and let Allah take care of the rest, for whatever His will is for you, it is the best yet to come..

 

Happy fasting, everyone! Happy Ramadhan…

Love,

@darkjasm

Flashbacks

My plane has just landed. I step onto familiar surroundings. The heat feels familiar. The sky looks familiar. Everything looks familiar as if nothing has changed in this city. It feels like yesterday, even though I’ve left this city for years. The arrival lounge is also similar to my memories of it, men holding the name-tag, people offering a rent car or queuing for taxi. Everything seems frozen in time.

I walk to my assigned meeting point, through some kind of underground tunnel, connecting the airport and the parking lot. I love this tunnel, it is large with a minimalist ornaments. It gives me a calm feeling with its pastel paint. Sounds from the railway above it give me thrill sensation, like I am going to crash the train. I wait for a driver from my client’s company outside the tunnel and when I look around me, I realize that the parking lot is larger than I ever remember. Finally, a minor change that reminds me this city is no longer the same.

Traffic outside the airport is not so crowded, maybe because it is an early Saturday morning. The driver asks me whether I want to stop for breakfast. I don’t feel hungry, but a cup of coffee would be nice. He stops in a small coffee vendor not so far from the airport. I feel glad that this driver is not a chit-chat person, I already feel exhausted with all the memories that are flooding my mind since I arrived here, in Yogyakarta, a city once I loved so much.

The sun is shining so bright this morning, but the breeze is cool and the coffee taste so good. Lovely morning, if I don’t remember that I am in a city where my worst nightmare happened.

Clear horizon with Mount Merapi as background takes me to years ago when I arrived here for the first time. Nearly 10 years ago. I remember coming here with high spirit and big hope, exploring this city with a great excitement and laughed at everything I never see in my hometown. I hope I can re-experience those feeling again, maybe those are the remedy for my bitterness feeling of this city.

Yogyakarta. Special District. Cultural City. Full of students, from around Indonesia and overseas. Famous for its diversity. Famous for its myths. It has an imaginary line that goes straight from Mount Merapi to Kraton Ngayogyakartahadiningrat (Yogyakarta Palace) and finish in Parangtritis Beach. The most southern part of yogyakarta is a line of beaches. Many beautiful beaches.

My mind takes me to one fine afternoon, when my thesis deadline was getting closer and i didn’t have enough spirit to finish it on time. Instead of writing it, I drove my car to Depok Beach. I love Depok Beach even though the sand is not white but it has fish market which sell fresh fish from the sea. I arrived at the beach in time to watch the sun started to set. Magnificent. The sky’s color was changing from bright blue to orange and finally lost in the darkness of night. I love spending my early night at that beach. Fishermen were getting ready for night fishing. People were packing their bags to go home. Sea waves were getting higher and the sound of the wave soothed my chaotic mind. I felt calm and my mood was much better when I came home that night. I am longing for that place, even more, I am longing for that calm feeling. I am longing for my happiness.

The car is back on the street, smoothly driven to Malioboro Street. The most famous tourist destination in Yogyakarta. The place where my client is waiting for the briefing. I guess Depok Beach has to wait a little longer.

I miss you!
I miss you!
This is for the Day 2 assignment of writing 101.
 Can you see Yogyakarta as I see it?
It is actually a fiction and I intend to keep it going through this month challenge..
day by day

Night’s Lover

Night is my loyal friend. I love Night. Night could always understand me. I feel very safe in its embrace. Silence and cool breeze are what I miss the most from night.

I love the night, but I am afraid of the moon. I can’t exactly figure out why I fear the moon, maybe it is because its arrogance. Moon is only reflecting sun’s light, but it seems like those lights are its own. I don’t like it. It is so artificial for me.

Still, my fear for the moon never make me hate the night.

Stars. They probably are another reason why I love night.

twinkle twinkle little star

how I wonder what you are

I wonder.. Stars are shining. They shine their own lights, but never defeat the fake moonlight. Even though their lights are not as bright as moonlight, starlight is giving me hope. For me, stars are tough. They taught me how to keep shining, even if others won’t understand why you do it. They taught me that even if you seem to only accomplish small thing, you did accomplish something and there are people who are inspired by your efforts. Just like how stars keep inspiring me to make steps toward my seems-like-impossible dream.

Tonight, I sit in my backyard. Black coffee is my only companion in enjoying the night. I usually have trouble sleeping in a new place. I just moved to my new house today and i have given up sleep hours ago. My watch tells me that it’s near dawn and i have to be in the airport early in the morning. My bags are not packed yet, I really like to procrastinate everything, even packing.

Oh how I hate to say good bye to the night and back into the lights of my bedroom. I hate it even more because the reason of this good bye is my morning flight to a city I secretly hate.

..because the night owns me
..because the night owns me
This is my post for the Day 1 challenge of writing 101.
I feel like i want to make a fiction.
Wish me luck!
🙂

Writing 101

I am irritated by my own writing. I am like a violinist whose ear is true, but whose fingers refuse to reproduce precisely the sound he hears within.
– Gustave Flaubert

 

Yes! I’ve just enrolled in a Blogging University.

Class of June, 2014.

I do realize that I failed my last writing challenge, but I will keep going and keep writing. Motivation is what I really need.

Let’s buckle up and have fun in the class!

😀

Moments with @photomatt and @wpjkt

I have to admit that this one is really a very late post.

Last week, the CEO of automattic was coming to Jakarta for the 3rd Jakarta WordPress Meetup and I was so happy to be a part of WPJKT volunteer (Thanks to Mr Valent for allowing me to volunteer). This is a big event for WordPress community in Indonesia, esp. Jakarta but Mr Valent succeed in organizing this event with only few volunteers! I do suspect that he has done some magic.. 😆

Conversation with Matt Mullenweg was held in Binus University. True to the theme, Q&A session was so fun. Many participants asked many kinds of questions which answered eagerly by Matt. I did enjoy the event despite I didn’t really understand what they were talking about since I am a pure user (I don’t really understand their language, it was like they were talking about coding in a code language :D).

Matt was talking about his early year developing WordPress, how the name WordPress is decided and many things they have done so far until WordPress become so massive. Bahasa Indonesia is not surprisingly one of the most used language for blogging in WordPress base blog, therefore WordPress will launch its full Indonesia translation!

One thing that attract me from many things he said in the night session was that how he love to photograph the cloud, that is maybe the reason behind this. Other thing that attract me was in the Brunch Session when he said that he loves Path and that is why posting a WordPress entry from path is so easy and vice versa.

With a founder like Matt, I don’t have doubt that WordPress will keep getting bigger and bigger. He has passion in everything he does and from two things above, I know that he love what he’s doing and he could spread the love all around the world.

This is truly a big opportunity for me, Thanks to mas Valent for the chance. I am looking forward for the next one! #eh

Selfie with Matt! :lol:
Selfie with Matt! hohoho

 

 

Let’s Meet Matt!

Do you know that WordPress is one big blog platform, and kind of the biggest one in the world?

Do you know that WordPress also is one of the most used platform for any purposes of self-hosted web in the world?

…do you know that Matt Mullenweg is the founder of Automattic who run this WordPress.com?

…and do you know that Matt will come to Jakarta soon?

 

Why Jakarta?

..maybe because Bahasa Indonesia is the top four language used by wordpress.com bloggers (read it here)

or maybe YOU SHOULD REALLY COME TO KNOW MORE ABOUT IT! :-))

 

3rd Jakarta WordPress Meetup
3rd Jakarta WordPress Meetup

 

So, Come and Join the 3rd Jakarta Meet Up on 2nd June, 2014!

Follow @WPJKT in twitter and Join the Jakarta WordPress MeetUp Group and Reserve your place here.

Go visit the official Jakarta WordPress Meetup here.

Cheers!

See you next month..

@daRkJasm

Mumbling #6 – Social Media

Do you know that social media is a social thing, not your own private stuff? I almost can’t stop my self from laughing every time I hear or read a defensive sentence such as “this is my account, I can do whatever I want with it, if you all feel uncomfortable, feel free to unfriend/unfollow/unshare or that kind of words.” If you really think that your account is your private space, try to lock your account and just befriend someone close to you. Your choice to open your account means that you have agreed the social term and condition, the second you create your account. Everything that you’ve posted online, it went to all corner of this universe and EVERYONE can access it freely. BE RESPONSIBLE of all your post/status/photo/any kind of it for leaving our world a much better place to stay. I don’t suggest to fake your post, but if you post it, it means that you are ready for all the consequences that come with it. NEVER blame others if they don’t approve your posts, everyone has their own preferences, just like you. We have the same rights. Your account will never be only about you in this cyber world.

My Self – The Side Story

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I couldn’t give up, even if I have to.
I don’t believe in miracle, even if I supposed to.
I can’t focus on one thing, even if I am forced to.
I won’t choose speaking over writing, even if I need to.
I couldn’t even if I could.
I don’t even if I do.
I can’t even if I can.
I won’t even if I will.
Believe what i tell you..
Since I believe what I don’t suppose to.