love is all i have

hidup ku belakangan ini sangat bisa digambarkan oleh lagu Muse – Starlight,,

here is d lyric,,
Y_Y

Far away
The ship is taking me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

Starlight
I will be chasing the starlight
Until the end of my life
I dont know if it’s worth it anymore

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
you in my arms

My life
You electrify my life
Lets conspire to ignite
All the cells that would die just to feel alive

But I’ll never let you go
If you promised not to fade away
never Fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations

Hold you in my Arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms

Far away
The ship is taking me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

And I’ll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
never Fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations

Hold you in my Arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms

… yeah,, this ship is taking me faraway,,

but this is the path that i choose,,

i’ve get to be ready for all d consequences,,

even it cost my life,,

for God and Country,,

let me say that my life isn’t mine anymore,,

……i just Love it, I know it!!

Fooled

time is fooling us,,
moving d world so quickly,,
either up or down,,
at least you’re making your step,,
either forward or backward,,

feel mercy,,
to miserable people,,
that stucked,,
due to d closeminded sight,,

feel happy,,
to those who keep struggling,,
even what is left is only a hope,,

keep dreaming,,
keep praying,,

don’t be fooled by d chances!
u will always get to make ur chances!
coz everyone has their own place in this world,,

Tangan terpasung

Aku tau aku tak bisa memiliki segalanya,,
Aku hAnya dtakdirkan memiliki yang ku butuhkan,,

Aku butuh dirimu,,
Dan aku cemburu,,
Jika ia juga mengambilmu,,

Bilang aku egois,,
Bilang aku manja,,
Bilang aku menyebalkan,,
Tapi aku butuh kamu,,
Karena cuma kamu yang slalu tinggal untukku,,

…atau
Bilang saja,,
Aku memang benci dia!!

…JIH, 10 Juli 2009…
Camelia, 2202A
13.35

Sent from my iPhone

Wondering in the middle of the night *kinda poem again

,,silence,,
,,broken by d cLink,,
,,staring at my surrounding,,
,,only to find nothing,,

,,siLence,,
,,broken by d memory,,
,,remembering d moment when i cRy,,
,,d day my tears goin dry,,

,,silence,,
,,broken by d flash of ur smile,,
,,went through a mile,,
,,tore my heart into pieces just like missile,,

,,silence,,
,,in this midnight,,

,,me,,
,,in this midnight,,

,,remembering u,,
,,ur gorgeous love,,
,,that i can never beat u,,

.midnight.
.me.
.remembering.
.u and ur love.

.m.e.
.a.l.o.n.e.
.missing u.

my LuvLy mOther..

*dedicated for mY LuvLy chie,,
we’ve been through many things together,,
experienced almost many same things,,

i’m just too understand ur feeling,,
me.and.u.share.our.bitter.memory,,

we.love.momma.forever.
love u,,

 

Ngayogjokartohadiningrat, 12th March 2009

02.42 am

,,new time of Land,, *just another poem

I waLk aLone

in d daRkness of d Night

wind as d cOmpanion

together we dRied,,

stream in my miNd

bLowing dReams aWay

aLways a sTep intO d DarKness

aLL thingS’Re cOnfusing

sTiLL theRe aLone

I sTand Chagrin,,

a bLiss of a StaR

bLinkS bRightLy Through d SheaR

mOre thaN I can BeaR

instead a tRip to d fEar,,

and I’m neVer been hEre

where d Dust bLind d feaR

I feared d Land

where it’s caLLed a wOndeR,,

,,29 Januari 2009,,

HappY b’daY Jelii

Ruang Sidang II

UpGrading PDR 08-09

Lost in fEar and saDness

after all

why do Love very hard to understood??

why people keep going to hide behind their feeling??

never mind what’s happening in d heaRt,,

thought there’s always a second chance,,

or even hOping to make tomorrow’s move,,

and finally regret the love that they didn’t aware before??
or even, the love that ignored just for the self-praise??

is it cost that much??

coz it does hurt in the end,,

pain that we never can ignore,,

life’s never be simple anymore,,

pathetic,,

I name it FLAME

going through the darkness,,

finding something that really passioning,,

keep running and don’t turning back,,

running,,

running,,

faster,,

faster,,

until u find that u’ll never be there,,

unless U make a fire,,

flaming under ur desire,,

going through the blankness,,

with the eyes shut and the ears hear nothing,,

walking inside the path and beyond the line which is black,,

screaming,,

yelling,,

rolling like a monster,,

rubbing like a gangster,,

Never though that u’ll ever back there,,

unLess U wanna Make another fire,,

RUnning inside of your FLAMing desire,,

This is for Thursday Poets Rally week 28,,

enjoy!

lagi,, untuknya

ting,,

ting,,

tiktak,,

tiktuk,,

Q coba tUk kejar LangkaHnYa,,

berHarAp bIsa b’jaLan sejajar dengannya,,

berlaRi unTuk berdampingan,,

kadang jUga Q coba terbang,,

bLasss,,

ia LenyaP

TernYata aQ tenggeLam

Ting,,

ting,,

tiktak,,

tiktuk,,

ia berbaLik,,

sEnYum,,

Tapi aQ sudaH terLanjUr kaKu,,

mendeLik,,

berteriak Tak peRcaya,,

ia uLurkan Tangan

aQ meLayang

menuJu sisinYa,,

bLurreD,,

pRangggg,,

ternYata hanya air maTa yang berdarah

tinggal aQ dan Kenangan

pUing,,

piEces oF “dia”,,