More than 2 decades has gone by.The hurt is still real.The longing is even bigger. Your love! is all I needYour love! is all I crave I never know how to mend this wound, nor that I want to. That’s OKAY. This scar means that you are real.That your love is realThe smell that IContinue reading “22 years”
Category Archives: ..as a Daughter
September 2003
This is a sad story. Beware. It is about the day my mom passed away. You’ve been warned.
Mother, how are you today?
How are you, Mom? Let me tell you a recent story of my life.
A day after the 29th November
Dear Ma, This is a day after your supposedly 62nd birthday. Do you have any idea how much I miss you? I guess you have, since you are there in the ever after life, but also I guess it’s not matter to you anymore because the only things that will reach you from me areContinue reading “A day after the 29th November”
September 24
I have lost someone I love the most in this date, couple of years ago. The mourn has passed while the love is still in this heart. But this year, I have to welcome someone that I know I will love.. Welcome to the world, Baby KRC! Congratulation for Bang Dod & Kak Ira.. ^_^
in the night like this… #np
try to read this while listening to mocca song “in the night like this” or “Hanya Satu” for more tears… it’s been a while since my last post about my ma, not because i stop missing her, I will never have a second without missing her. I miss her smile.. I miss her smell.. IContinue reading “in the night like this… #np”
why I want to be a child again…
…and almost everyone wants to be at home.
Have a peace and warm birthday there, ma!
23 September 2003, ba’da Magrib waktu setempat. “Jangan pergi, Nak. Disini aja” ujar mama terbata-bata, lidahnya mulai kaku, mengikuti sebagian badannya yang sudah mati rasa dari beberapa saat yang lalu. Aku tetap memijat tangan mama walaupun ia sudah tak bisa merasakannya lagi, berharap pijatanku dapat membuat aliran darahnya lancar kembali dan separuh badannya tak matiContinue reading “Have a peace and warm birthday there, ma!”
11.11.11
11 November 2011 or 11-11-11. That is the most awaited date in the world, or at least in Indonesia, where many people held their wedding ceremony or done the birth surgery, or other special occasion, but not for me, i’m not a fan of that kind of worship. I never planned to done something specialContinue reading “11.11.11”
the Unplanned Journey
aah… Here I come to this city, back to the city where I left my bitter sweet memories, return to the city, return to my home. Too many changes so I can’t even notice it… or is it me that is too numb to notice? i do want to go home, but not like this…Continue reading “the Unplanned Journey”
The DarkJasmine 